I LOVE U

wish i still could tel her tht i love her next to her close to her ear.... softly....

In the end, stil the same.. i neva make it..

the last photo.. stil as same .. i still neva get her heart.. btw, i miss her so much.. just wan to tel her i love her if i got chance..

アレンの愛は永遠にクリス

私は彼女のようにそれほど..ただ、なぜか分からない..私は彼女の..ままにしたくないなぜ一緒にいるだけで幸せに暮らすことはできませんか？に戻ってくることができるのか？私はあなたの愛..寵児

Why?

why my life has to be like this...
why cant i really love her...
why must make things to complcated...
why cant just simply love...
why cant just stick together because of love...
why must hide all the love...
why must has a gap between love...
why must suffering about love...
why can just " I LOVE YOU"

the last photo we take together..

this were the last photo that i take wit her on the day that my brother get marry.. i really miss her.. hope she was miss me too :(

putrajaya firework^^

too bad my digicam cant take nice photo at nite, but make the photo looks artistic :p

here some photo of firework that i take..

today after shopping in 1u then we are planning to go to PICC to watch the Spain team firework competition^^ honestly, i have no idea how to get to that place :p luckily i call my friends then he just ask me to follow the signboard.. fortunely i have make it to that place.. haha^^ during on the way to PICC, it take around 45minutes.. when we have reach putrajaya, we r totally shock about that place! we have never been to this place or even know how it looks like.. it was a really quite interesting place, especially the bridge we go through.. it looks like the penang bridge but it looks more modern.. is a relly good structure.. when we r reach is still early for the firework 8pm.. the firework actually start at 9.30pm+ but luckily we reach early la if not there is no parking for us ady :) by the way, we have find a best spot for us to watch the firework^^ we have wait for a long time, got rain abit la but till the time to start the firework it stop.. it was really good firework performence by Spain.. chris and me both like that short one like a fan de.. :) it was a 30minute show.. (i think so gua.. :p ) thank god almost the end of the show it only raining.. :) it rain quite heavy.. it make difficult for me to drive.. then i send her home tonite.. i tel her i love her, but she is not ready to tel me she love me yet.. however, thank for the day my dear, i really appreciate it.. I love u my dear....

is it some kind of test for me??

today i have argue with her again.. haiz.... honestly, i'm cry like a baby today again.. i know she hate me cry infront of her.. but.... i cant control it, it just drop.. y we r argue?? maybe im the causes.. i ask stupid question alots.. it just happen when we are wake up, after she finish bathing she just went out.. i duno where she went.. but i just leave her alone till at nite only i call her.. during the afternoon, i am going anywhere by no direction.. duno wat actually i am doing.. im feel so suck.... without her.. when i was alone at her house before i went out.. i've found out somethings that i have to trust her.. yes, i have decide to trust her.. maybe it was some kind of test to me.. just need more times to settle it.. and i have try my best to never leave her.. i'll still stay together with her nowaday.. i wouldn't give up on her.. because i truly love her.. i belive i can make her fall in love with me again.. I love u....