アレンの愛は永遠にクリス

私は彼女のようにそれほど..ただ、なぜか分からない..私は彼女の..ままにしたくないなぜ一緒にいるだけで幸せに暮らすことはできませんか？に戻ってくることができるのか？私はあなたの愛..寵児

Why?

why my life has to be like this...
why cant i really love her...
why must make things to complcated...
why cant just simply love...
why cant just stick together because of love...
why must hide all the love...
why must has a gap between love...
why must suffering about love...
why can just " I LOVE YOU"

the last photo we take together..

this were the last photo that i take wit her on the day that my brother get marry.. i really miss her.. hope she was miss me too :(

putrajaya firework^^

too bad my digicam cant take nice photo at nite, but make the photo looks artistic :p

here some photo of firework that i take..

today after shopping in 1u then we are planning to go to PICC to watch the Spain team firework competition^^ honestly, i have no idea how to get to that place :p luckily i call my friends then he just ask me to follow the signboard.. fortunely i have make it to that place.. haha^^ during on the way to PICC, it take around 45minutes.. when we have reach putrajaya, we r totally shock about that place! we have never been to this place or even know how it looks like.. it was a really quite interesting place, especially the bridge we go through.. it looks like the penang bridge but it looks more modern.. is a relly good structure.. when we r reach is still early for the firework 8pm.. the firework actually start at 9.30pm+ but luckily we reach early la if not there is no parking for us ady :) by the way, we have find a best spot for us to watch the firework^^ we have wait for a long time, got rain abit la but till the time to start the firework it stop.. it was really good firework performence by Spain.. chris and me both like that short one like a fan de.. :) it was a 30minute show.. (i think so gua.. :p ) thank god almost the end of the show it only raining.. :) it rain quite heavy.. it make difficult for me to drive.. then i send her home tonite.. i tel her i love her, but she is not ready to tel me she love me yet.. however, thank for the day my dear, i really appreciate it.. I love u my dear....

is it some kind of test for me??

today i have argue with her again.. haiz.... honestly, i'm cry like a baby today again.. i know she hate me cry infront of her.. but.... i cant control it, it just drop.. y we r argue?? maybe im the causes.. i ask stupid question alots.. it just happen when we are wake up, after she finish bathing she just went out.. i duno where she went.. but i just leave her alone till at nite only i call her.. during the afternoon, i am going anywhere by no direction.. duno wat actually i am doing.. im feel so suck.... without her.. when i was alone at her house before i went out.. i've found out somethings that i have to trust her.. yes, i have decide to trust her.. maybe it was some kind of test to me.. just need more times to settle it.. and i have try my best to never leave her.. i'll still stay together with her nowaday.. i wouldn't give up on her.. because i truly love her.. i belive i can make her fall in love with me again.. I love u....

'The Unforgetable Moment'

is been four year since we meet at form four, alots of things has been happen.. sad.. happy.. stupid.. suffer and so on.. i have to say we are really go through alots of things.. the unforgetable moment? tht really alots of them, but... that is one moment that i never ever forget bout it.. it happen at form four, it just happen not long from july 16 2005.. actually is a quite normal day, and nothing special, it started with when we are after school, she went for bath first, so i was tired and just lying on her bed and straigh fall in sleep.. after a mean while, when she has finish bathing.. she lying on top of my body while i was still asleep.. when i open my eyes.. i have saw a world most beautiful's smile on her face! yes, i have to told you that the unforgetable moment is all about her beautiful's smile! i have never forget that smile even four year later.. hope i wouldn't forget that smile all the way to the end of my life.. that smile really means alots to me.. that beautiful's smile have told me that don't even leave my dear.. i hope i can see that smile again in my future.. I love you my Dear!!

love4ever

i have been together wit my girlfriend bout 4 year.. untill now i still cant forget the first day how we started.. there is aolts of sweet memory happen as well as sad memories between us among this 4 years.. i can tell everyone of u that i really love her.. but started this year 2008.. fews incident has happen.. this mean while, june 27, she suddenly told me that she did not need me anymore.. it was truly sad for me.. until today august 21, i'm still trying my best to get her back into my life.. i just dowan to loose her again.. i am so regret wat i have done to her last time and not taking serious on her and didn really appreciate her.. i hope she will give me a other chance to make it better.. i love her so much.. i have learn my lesson and i know wat i supposed to do next.. but i still afraid.. i scare i will take a wrong step again that will loose her again.. i love her! and i really need her to accompany me to the end of my journey.. i hope she will know how my feel.. i hope i can hear she tell me that she love me, i hope i can feel the love between us and i hope she will come back to me.. i just want to tell u my dear.. I LOVE U DARLING!!