is it some kind of test for me??

today i have argue with her again.. haiz.... honestly, i'm cry like a baby today again.. i know she hate me cry infront of her.. but.... i cant control it, it just drop.. y we r argue?? maybe im the causes.. i ask stupid question alots.. it just happen when we are wake up, after she finish bathing she just went out.. i duno where she went.. but i just leave her alone till at nite only i call her.. during the afternoon, i am going anywhere by no direction.. duno wat actually i am doing.. im feel so suck.... without her.. when i was alone at her house before i went out.. i've found out somethings that i have to trust her.. yes, i have decide to trust her.. maybe it was some kind of test to me.. just need more times to settle it.. and i have try my best to never leave her.. i'll still stay together with her nowaday.. i wouldn't give up on her.. because i truly love her.. i belive i can make her fall in love with me again.. I love u....